This past weekend I competed in the WBFF (World Beauty Fitness & Fashion) Competition in the Bikini Division. For those of you who know me, you might think, WHAT? It’s kind of how I felt…but I set my mind to it and committed. Over the past 7 months I transformed not only my body, but my life. I’m not the same person as when I started, we never are when me decide to make a commitment to something BIG.
A NEW LEVEL OF FIERCE
Before this process I worked out every day and ate a very clean diet. Durning this process I had to take it to an entirely new level. I had to eat, sleep & breathe this competition for 210 days. I was lifting heavy, I completely shifted my diet and my workouts…it was INSANE and I felt like I was and I wanted to quit. While the physical results are easy to see what it did for me mentally was BEYOND my wildest imagination.
Every time I wanted to sleep in I had to remember what I was working for. When I wanted to hang out with friends I would have to do workouts with them instead of cocktails. Dinners out were a no go, it was food prep at home, but the biggest thing I learned is to talk to myself the way I talk to my students (sh!t is REAL GOOD!) SO many times in my workouts I had myself running through my head, “I CAN, I AM, I WILL” “When you think you Can’t you MUST!” (that one I took away from my Tony Robbins “Date with Destiny” last December). Remembering my own words kept me on the hook for not only finishing, but finishing STRONG.
IT’S ALL A LEARNING PROCESS
I had a HUGE learning moment this past Thursday night, two days before the show…a breakdown. I had a dress rehearsal with my coach’s team. I FLOPPED. I FROZE… Whatever you call it, I was anything, but FIERCE. Walking, posing, in all of it I looked like a train wreck…not in my physical body, but in my spirit, my confidence was shot. I cried the entire walk home (I’m sure the carb/water depletion didn’t help). I wanted to quit, there was NO way I was going out on stage presenting myself like that. A few inspirational texts from my coach and a dear friend and I knew I had to pick up the pieces and get it together. I went to NYSC with our PR rep from SWERVE (another dear friend) by my side on Friday morning to find what I had last the night before and the rest is history, I found my confidence!
From start to finish this day was AH-MAZING! I woke up and ran errands because I had so much nervous energy in my body! I was surrounded by amazing friends, “my bridesmaids” while I got my hair and makeup done. The texts/emails/calls posts that let up to the evening show with thoughts of “good luck” and encouragement were EVERYTHING. I was so filled with love that I didn’t even need to competed…I felt complete. BUT OF COURSE I DID!
I competed in the 35+ bikini division and transformation division in which I qualified for the world show. I will NOT be going to Vegas for the World’s. My goal is complete. I did not set out on this journey to make this my life’s pursuit. I competed to learn how strong I am and that i did.
I started training January 17th at 117lbs 21% body fat..
On July 6th (pre depletion week, the week before competition) I was 122.4 13.4% body fat
COMPETITION DAY, July 11th: 114.6 12.7% body fat!!!!!
Remember, it’s not what you GET it’s what you GIVE. You gotta GIVE in a FIERCE way and BELIEVE that you will GET more than you ever dreamed.
Let’s celebrate this week together! Below is my schedule for the remainder of the week.