EACH BREAKdown IS A breakTHROUGH

img_0280WHEN NO REALLY MEANS YES

Perception is everything. I know that, but sometimes in the moment it’s challenging to make that connection. So here’s what happened to me recently and why I bring this up. I had my first practice session with my posing coach (posing coach = bad ass woman who teaches you to strut like a boss all while being feminine and how to stand best for my bod and the judges) on Thursday night. Donned in my super classy clear plastic heels I was strutting away feeling good because I had done this before. It’s always a bit nerve-wracking to work with someone new and have them critique you, but this gal is super cool so it was going fabulously. Throughout our hour together I was getting all good feedback. At the end of our session she says, “So when are you thinking (meaning show date)?” I reply, “April 1st or 8th” and her response, “I think 12 weeks.” This would put me at April 29th/May 6th, not that big of a deal you may think, but the result of her comment were my flowing tears. Crying is literally my version of a little kid stomping her feet. I was heartbroken. All I heard in my head was, “You’re not ready. You’re not good enough. This process will go on and on. You’ll never be ready.”

MY FIRST (OF MANY TO COME) LESSONS 

I had to ask myself why I was reacting this way. I had a date set in my head, but I also have a goal. I’m not just showing up on stage this time, I’m competing to win. I had told my coach this and she’s holding me to my word. What does a date matter? There are shows all the time. I can and will win this. What I can’t do is rush the process. The crying was my way of wanting it to work, fearing that I’m not or never will be winning material. Breathing, meditating, spending real time thinking on this subject I know that’s not the case. I must have patience through this. I must have faith and trust the process. I must believe and know that everything is all working out perfectly and in divine time. Who knows where the show will be, who will be there, all I have to know is that it will be perfect for me and that I will win.

LOOKING BACK ISN’T ALL BAD

I have come so far in only 10 weeks of training. I see and feel how my body has shifted. I have to look back to appreciate my journey. I’ve seen my progress in photos and know where I have to go. I’m tweaking my diet, my workouts, my sleep to get the best results possible. I am stronger than I have ever been in my entire life and am SO grateful for all of the support I have received. Mainly I’m grateful for my ability to see all the good in each situation. Probably the best thing that came out of the last show was learning how hard it could be and know that I made it that way. This go round, YES it’s challenging, but I don’t have to make it a struggle or complain every step of the way. I’ve done that and it’s NO FUN. I appreciate my body, my health all of the new (crazy) people I’ve met along the way and I truly wouldn’t change a thing. Look how great this is! And now I get to do it for longer!

DON’T F-ING SETTLE

Here’s the real thing, if I rushed the process I wouldn’t get what I really wanted in the first place, I’d be settling for good enough. I want magic in all areas of my life; career, love, health, wealth…all of it! Sometimes magic takes a little extra time just like my show. There’s no time table on life. All I have to do is believe is coming and know I’m giving my BEST (in joy and gratitude) every single day.

This is only the beginning…

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It’s cold AF outside! Come #getfierce with me this week.

MY SCHEDULE THIS WEEK

MONDAY 2/13

5:30PM Team Cycling, SWERVE, 30 West 18th Street
6:30PM Team Cycling, SWERVE, 30 West 18th Street WAITLIST

TUESDAY 2/14
6:30AM Team Cycling, SWERVE, 21 West 46th St.
7:30AM Team Cycling, SWERVE, 21 West 46th St.

 

 

WEDNESDAY 2/15 (MY BIRTHDAY!) PRIZED 2 TEAM LEADERS

6:ooAM Team Cycling, SWERVE, 30 West 18th Street

THURSDAY 2/16
7:30AM Team Cycling, SWERVE, 21 West 46th St.
12:30PM Team Cycling, SWERVE, 21 West 46th St.

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FRIDAY 2/17

5:30PM Team Cycling, SWERVE, 30 West 18th Street SUB ALERT
6:30PM Team Cycling, SWERVE, 30 West 18th Street SUB ALERT

SATURDAY 2/18

9:15AM 60 MINUTE Team Cycling, SWERVE, 30 West 18th Street
9:30AM Team Cycling, SWERVE, 30 West 18th Street

MONDAY 2/20

5:30PM Team Cycling, SWERVE, 30 West 18th Street

img_0242MEDITATE WITH ME on VALENTINE’S DAY (TOMORROW)

Tuesday, February 14th, Valentine’s Day, I will be leading a special chakra clearing and heart focused meditation. This is a tradition that is thousands of years old that allows sound and vibration to flow through your body allowing restoreation to the body’s natural state of peace and ease. All you need to do is lay and be, the bowls will do the rest.

Time: 6:30PM

Date: Friday, February 14th

Register: HERE. SPACE IS LIMITED ONLY 2 SPOTS LEFT!

Location: 35 East 10th St (bet B’way & University)

Cost: $30

Please wear loose fitting clothing with no buttons or zippers. Make sure to drink water throughout the day in preparation. This class is open to all meditation levels. Comment below to set up a private group session or to bring the bowls to your corporation.

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